A new friend...

It is really dark outside. Am on my my bed but can't sleep due to that niggling pain in my right jaw. Am thinking of running away; away from this pain, from the darkness that surrounds me, from all the expectations that bound me, from all the ethos that me a righteous individual, from the god that rules me!

Not able to see anything I close my eyes anyways. Not thinking how today went and what I need to do tomorrow. I am free of what has happened to me and what I would be doing further. I am away from both reality and fiction. I am away from that tiredness I was experiencing thus far.. all I know is that I am breathing. I forgive myself for all the mistakes made, I let go others who I believe have been bad to me. I am not angry anymore for being hurt by words or actions. I am now a wind that is just flowing irrespective of the shape or form. I am that light in that darkness that sees me content with myself irrespective of all failures. I am just happy being what I am - no more, no less than that. I take that step ahead to find the peace within :-)

From all the peace I am experiencing, there comes a thought - thought of making of a new friend. Someone who doesnt judge me, someone who listens to me unconditionally, someone who doesnt take the liberty of flirting with emotions, someone who is pure, as transperant as water, someone who tells me what I am, someone who lets me see through me, someone who doesnt hurt me through his action or inaction, some who doesnt make me sad. Some one who stays - irrespective of a million people walking by me. I've decided to be my best friend! ...

(Being judgemental about others is bad, being judgemental about oneself is a crime!) .. and this someone is not gonna be that :-)